Day 24: 4 Days To Freedom

Yes it's true, I am probably going to go by my Doctor's office on Monday and get weighed again. But I am also committed to my walking program (tomorrow may be problematic as the forecast calls for 6-12 inches of snow). I don't think I'll have an equally substantial weight loss (8 lbs)—I'm guessing it will be more like four. But for me, it's not a numbers game right now. It will be in June if I'm still hovering around 200—but until then I'm satisifed that I feel better, and am in general less revolting to myself. As I was about two weeks ago at this point, I was starting to fret about getting out there—really out there in Phase Two. I suspect I will add a carb for breakfast (like wheat bread or oatmeal) and then keep the rest of my day the same. Yes the reports are true, I have been offering all my unwanted chocolate and girl scout cookies to my coworkers. It is sadistic, but not intentionally so. Really, I don't take any pleasure in it, I just need to get rid of it.

Breakfast
(Long time readers can skip breakfast, there's nothing new here)
JOTS TB (2)
Eggs Over Easy
1 Tsp of Peanut Butter

Snack
16 Cashews (are you counting with me?)
2 Cheese Sticks
30 Pistachios (give or take a few, many were unopen)

Lunch
Salad with Roast Chicken

Dinner
Jane's Amazing Salmon Concoction:
Black Beans, Salmon, Scallions, Spinach, Nuts, Red Peppers, Snow Peas
Salad

Dessert
Fugetaboutit

Lunch was dreadful. It was from Casa de Pedro's, which is usually super-yummy, but today it was just not up to snuff. However, there was a lot of it, so that was good. I focused mostly on the lettuce and felt like a horse eating hay.

Tonight, I am skipping dessert again, not only to lose weight, but to further my quest to break my dependence on sweets completely. Prior to my diet I must have been eating the equivelant of a candy bar a day. Maybe not every day, but a lot of the days. To tell you the truth, it was shameful and embarrassing. But it did taste great. Today I made a chocolate chip ice cream cone for Ruby with rainbow sprinkles. I felt the ghost of my knees buckle, but never did I entertain the thought of putting any to my lips. And you know, I may not be able to go forever without carbs, or sweets, but the truth is if I had to, I should be satisfied with all that I had consumed for thirty-nine years and up till now.